Big Decisions

There are a few big decisions that I’m making. The one I’m most excited about is going to remain a secret for now, at least to the blog world. Some friends already know since I talk about it constantly 🙂

The other big decision is this: I’m going to buy a house. Well, I’m going to offer on a house and I hope to get it. It’s a gorgeous house too. A Bethlehem family owns it now, but they already have an offer accepted at a new place, so they want to sell this one. This house is right where I want to live, in the middle of Phillips, near some friends, I could stop looking and just get a house. I’m ready. Lets do it.

But…

Both of these things have the potential to be very good things. Exceedingly good. Like I’m crazy excited to see how they both work out. But they may not. I might not get this house. The other thing could end up flopping (please Lord, let things go well!). I have no control over the decisions others make. I play my part, not theirs. I may want people to think and act in certain ways, but there are no guarantees. Both these things are contingent on the decision of other people, and the Lord will work out all things for the good of those who love Him.

May the Lord do what seems good to Him.

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Blog Details

I’m in the process of organizing all the posts I imported from Blogger. Apparently I used categories there like WordPress likes to use tags, so I’m going through and changing them all. It’s tedious.

I read a lot of blogs, and know how nice it is when folks don’t ramble on. Short posts are wonderful. So I’ll try to do that from now on. Hopefully it will encourage me to write more. I won’t always stick to it though.

Video Games

My story:

I remember the day my family got an NES. I think I stayed in the van as my dad ran into Walmart and bought the thing, but I definitely remember holding the box on the way home. It came with Super Mario Brothers and Duck Hunt (the combo pack). My siblings and I played it so much! Every new Mario game we got and mastered (though I still don’t know how to beat that never ending castle at the end of Mario 3).

Then it was the N64. Mario 64, Mario Kart, Mario Party (ok 4 of them), Star Fox, Zelda, and a bunch of other games were so exciting! I loved the Ocarina of Time and had to find all the heart pieces and uncover every secret.

A good friend of mine got a Gameboy, so of course Scott wanted one too. Pokemon was the game of choice, literally hundreds of hours were spent leveling your guys to the max, giving them all the perfect abilities and whatever else there was.

Then Halo came out. We didn’t have an Xbox but we soon got one and I was hooked. I went to Halo parties (which was where I first saw DDR and vowed to never play a game that made you look so stupid) and played whenever I went to a place where they had it. I also went on a Cross Country Skiing retreat and actually started to like DDR.

So far I haven’t even mentioned computer games. Command & Conquer, Starcraft, Warcraft, Counterstrike, I played them all. Everquest never really attracted me, I was too cheap to pay a subscription fee. I would tie up my families phone line for hours playing the games on the internet or with a friend.

Along came college… and Halo 2. I remember before it came out we would get a bunch of rooms in the dorm hooked up for Halo 1. The first game I played, I smoked everybody. It was a great way to meet people, I’m still friends with folks who I only know because of Halo. Halo 2 changed a lot for me though. Now that you could play on the internet with total strangers, you got your own screen and everyone was ranked?!? I played all the time. And I was good. Ridiculously good. My clan (aka team) was ranked in the top 20 in the world. My friends won money playing Halo 2 (I was so close, but somebody edged me out at the end). We got into strategy, talked about the “greats” of Halo and were all together really nerdy. I played so much that at one point, when someone turned the corner in front of me, I mentally adjusted my aim to get the headshot.

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A lot of this talk brings on nostalgia, but most of it makes me sad. I wasted so much of my life playing video games. It is too easy to exchange real interactions for virtual ones, and with such consequences. Life can seem surreal now, as though I wasn’t really living it but only dealing with a system that responds with pre-programed actions that have no lasting consequences. But living does have consequences, and very real ones.

If I had spent all those hours with people, playing piano, playing a sport, reading the bible, praying, evangelizing, how much different would the world be? How different should it be? These experiences have shaped me into the person I am today, so I am not wishing I hadn’t had them. But I will be cautious raising my children. I want them to live this life, not an imaginary one of little consequence.

A Change In Plans…

I just got an email from Mike Rusten, the man who taught my TBI Essentials class, which contained some very surprising news.

…it was decided to drop the second year of TBI Essentials and for this next year just to offer it on the downtown campus as a one year class

This might not sound like a huge deal, but I was planning on finishing the second year of TBI Essentials, then taking the first year of Greek offered by TBI. This would be in (hopeful) preparation for going to the seminary that Bethlehem is starting this coming year. The cancellation of the second year accelerates my schedule for making a decision on my future career path.

Please pray for wisdom and discernment with regards to this decision. There are so many factors that play into it, I need help. Things that I’m thinking about include…

  • Money- I make good money with my engineering salary. It wouldn’t be much of a lifestyle change if that income is reduced, but it would change things.
  • Job Satisfaction- I really enjoy engineering, but I find myself occupied with other things during the workday. My skills and inclinations may be more suited for a different kind of position.
  • Job Availability- Are there positions open for folks who have a seminary degree? I really don’t know what the market looks like. I also don’t know what type of positions there are within this field.
  • Family Reaction- I’m not entirely sure how my family would react, but I’m guessing they would not be in favor of this kind of move.
  • House Payments- I am currently searching for a house to buy. Having a job that pays less well may limit my options or require renting out space. That isn’t an issue now (and I was planning on doing it), but if I get married and start a family it would become more difficult.

I don’t want to give the impression that I’ve already made up my mind, I haven’t. I really don’t know what I will do. But this development has stirred up these thoughts and ideas which had settled a little.

And as a p.s., I’ve been trying different ways to allocate my time, which is why I haven’t written in a long while. Hopefully I’ll start writing more and more frequently, because I do enjoy it.