Insecurity

There is nothing like asking a girl out to realize how insecure you are.

Or rather, how insecure I am.

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A Silly Note

When is a silly thing foolish?
And when is a foolish thing fun?
I hope, for our sake,
that I made no mistake,
and your answer will be that I’ve won.

July Reading: Dracula

Imagine every stereotype of vampires you know being true. Enter the world of Dracula, a creepy count who is out to expand his eating operation. But he messes with the wrong group of folks, and the struggle begins.

The writing style was hard to adjust to, but once the second part of the book begins the story got rolling and reached an incredible climax in the very last pages. The blatant superstition tied with Catholicism was irritating, but I ended up really enjoying this book. There are other books that are more worth your time though, so if you don’t have an unquenchable urge to read Dracula, I’d say skip it.

June Reading: The Count Of Monte Cristo

I loved this book.

I came into The Count of Monte Cristo anticipating each scene and envisioning it happening like the film. This was impossible to sustain. You quickly realize that characters were been merged, minimized and misrepresented in the movie, and the people are so much more than you first thought. And the sovereignty of God is everywhere! Often explicitly stated, other times assumed, God is clearly the king of our lives.

“There is neither happiness nor misery in the world; there is only the comparison of one state with another, nothing more. He who has felt the deepest grief is best able to experience supreme happiness. We must have felt what it is to die, Morrel, that we may appreciate the enjoyments of living.”

The emotional journey was heart-wrenching. I began loving unexpected characters, while pitying those I wanted to hate and hating some I wanted to love. Then my feelings changed again! Sin, suffering, revenge and reconciliation are all part of the plot, but the true theme is captured in the book’s final sentence:

“Live, then, and be happy, beloved children of my heart, and never forget that until the day when God shall deign to reveal the future to man, all human wisdom is summed up in these two words, — `Wait and hope.'”

May Reading: Pilgrim’s Progress

I love to read fiction. I grew up in the library, burning through the Animorphs, Nancy Drew, the Hardy Boys, the Dune series, and so much more. I would say hello to the librarian, head straight to the Science Fiction/Fantasy racks and try to find a book I hadn’t read.

Reading nonfiction is hard. I thrive on the story, on the narrative pulling me along with the characters, watching their victories, failures, heart aches, laughs; their lives. When it came to the Bible, the Old Testament stories were far more appealing to me than the (perceived) self help style of the Epistles. I’ve since come to love the whole Bible, and appreciate each book as it’s own and as part of a whole, but to understand my appreciation of The Pilgrim’s Progress, by John Bunyan, you have to see where I’m coming from.

This book was wonderful. Following Christian through his journeys, through the Valley of the Shadow of Death, or his encounter with the Giant Despair, these are such beautiful analogies to every Christian’s journey. Then to see his wife travel the same path yet have different adventures! This was encouraging too. The blatant parallels to the walk of the believer makes this story come to life in ways I’ve rarely seen (Chronicles of Narnia is another example).

You will be blessed by this book.